Stress in my life
Stress is kind of a big deal. I
feel that especially at uni where half of the school shines a light on how
stressed out they are, and the other half either hides their stress or just
doesn't get it? I don’t really know. For me personally, I know that I feel fine
about school until one week when literally everything is due. During most days
I find it super hard to actual start the work. Once I get in the flow it isn’t
as bad, but I really struggle to get there. I’ll spend hours picking music, or
getting snacks, or making a plan for what work to do.
I don't know why it's so hard for
me to get started, I just can’t do the work sometimes. That makes it very hard
to relax, anytime to try to rest or hang out with friends I can’t stop thinking
about all of the work or studying I have to do. It’s not fun. Even on the weeks
that aren’t particularly dense in schoolwork, I still feel like I should be
doing something to prepare for the coming hard times.
I don’t really have a great way of
relieving stress. At this point, I'm kind of numb to it and often times I just
like a kind of apathy wash over me and just say eh. This definitely isn’t the
best way of dealing with stress but it’s where I'm at right now. All I'm really
about now about is trying to scrape together enough work to get an A. It’s
really killed almost any passion I have about anything related to school which
only makes it harder to try and chip away at the insurmountable mountain of
work it feels like I have sometimes.
It's not even just school stress at
this point, but that feels like it's how it started. Stress in my social life,
stress with college, stress with my family, all of it gets treated the same, it
doesn’t really get treated. And that's a problem, I'm getting better &
trying to un-burnout on life, but it’s really hard and I struggle with it a
lot. Stress kinda sucks.
I see the stress got to you in this blog post. But I have to agree with your perspective; stress is at a point in our lives where it defines who we are. For me, this is especially apparent at school, where I tend to distract myself and play Foos, TFT, Connect-4...anything that isn't related to working. Comparing me right now to my freshman self, I've lost my energy and passion for school. Sometimes, I feel like falling asleep in the Lounge and forgetting about that blog post due at 4 (sorry Dr. E), but my morals won't let me skip class nor skip that blog post. Burnout is real, but I have no way to address it until the weekend, where I can sleep away all those hours lost stressing over school, college, and work. Nevertheless, it's nice to know everyone is going through this phase with me and there to help in case I ever need it. Thank you for your insight.
ReplyDeleteBurnout is honestly the hardest struggle of senior year/hs in general. Motivation is such a hard thing to find sometimes and honestly sometimes I question if its really worth it. But, no matter how slow it seems or how painful it is, every assignment you struggle through and turn in is progress further in life, and taking those little steps is the best thing you can do honestly.
ReplyDeleteI see we really suffering from senoritis. Although, I think its this school that engineers short burst of stress. Teachers would have off weeks where they don't assign anything but then they suddenly all decided to assign everything all at once. For me, its impossible to get work done in a 45min study hall or work day because how long for me to get into the mode of doing work. I think after like 1-2 hour I get into that work flow, and once I do, I go through like 2 days worth of work in 45mins.
ReplyDeleteEspecially since finals are just around the corner, I can really relate to this post. I can relate to the feeling of constantly being stressed and burnout even though it's a relatively "easy" week. Another issue stemming from burnout that I face is wanting to put my all in a project for a certain class but not finding the motivation or time to put the effort in. I agree, "stress kinda sucks"
ReplyDeleteYeah, I totally identify with what you're saying. Stress sucks - I also can't motivate myself to do work, so I end up just sitting there trying to distract myself while feeling slightly stressed and guilty the entire time. I am so burnt out and honestly just living day by day, as they say. Haha, senior year is so much fun!
ReplyDeleteI also get what you said about school leeching away your passion. To be fair, I've also found new fun things at school too, but recently it's just been sucking the enjoyment out of everything I do. Feel for you, man. Sorry you're going through ths.
Stress is definitely a large part of the high school lifestyle. And you could probably correlate how many people are sick in a given week, to how much stress is in the school, because it definitely negatively impacts our immune systems. I think, even for me, I find it hard to not blame myself when work gets put off, even though with ADHD, there are times where I can't even control it, but I still try and blame myself. I think sometimes it's best to just accept that sometimes work is hard, it's annoying, and that it's only human to try and put it off. The most you can do is try and finish it as best you can.
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